Today, I want to share that I have been stuck in imposter syndrome the feeling we get when we feel like we are a fraud, that we are inadequate and self-doubt rules our abilities even though we are more than enough. It has affected all that I am trying to achieve with the Power of 3 Health and Wellbeing site through sharing my blogs and social media posts both on Facebook and Instagram.
Although I have come a long way from the person that I was there a year a half ago, there is still so much I need to learn and put into my practice myself. I struggle some days or even weeks with the basics like sleep, nutrition or “me time”. I get caught up inside my own head too much and am I a pro at talking myself into something and talking myself out of it just as quick!
I get scared of sharing the not so good days not that I only want to share the good times but it gets difficult to articulate it, then the fear and anxiety and the overwhelm hit and the subject I was going to write or talk about it does not get shared or brought into the world and I stay away from social media. Then before you know it weeks or months have passed without new content. Some of this is not only fear but not necessarily organising my week well enough around my full-time job and other activities or thinking that I perhaps I should wait until I get my certification in nutrition.
Deep down at my core I am passionate to help people to realign with themselves through mindset and build a sustainable and healthy relationship with nutrition and movement. Although I am not at my end goal, I know that every day I get up and try and that everyone’s story matters. I know that I can and will make a difference.
The Power of 3 Health and Wellbeing was started to give me a place where I felt safe to share my own health and wellbeing journey and to provide you the reader/follower a safe place to share and learn, with like-minded people and build a community. I want to educate not only using my own life experiences but as I gain the knowledge through my qualifications to share the information with you. To teach you more about nutrition and not be subject to the bullshit that I see and experience myself in this industry. To provide you with the tools to use in your day-to-day life. There is no one size fits all. I ask that you take what you need and what resonates with you. Please feel free to reach out to me through comments, private messages on the Facebook page or to DM me on Instagram.
I know first-hand what it is like to get to your ideal body shape in a short space of time but not have the skills to be able to maintain your physique. I know what it is like to compromise so much of yourself that one day you wake up and you don’t recognise yourself in the mirror and you are both mentally and physically exhausted and not sure where to turn. I know what it is like to want to make changes but not be ready for them. I know what it is like not to know or like the person looking back at you in the mirror. I want to share these experiences and more to help others not fall into the same traps as I did.
Part of my emotional health journey has been to understand that I am an empath, a highly sensitive person. This knowledge has helped me to continue to build my own confidence, self-worth and self-esteem. This is part of me that I am only just starting to share because I feel people will not like or not understand so I hide it. Being an empath means I do feel the need may be more time than usual away from social media because it becomes overwhelming and I need to adjust my energy balance. One of the things that has really helped with this is taking up yoga. It allows me to get out of my head and into my body and that is why I also use and trained as emotional freedom technique practitioner.
I just under a month away from turning 40 and I still don’t have it all figured out. What I do know that after every fall I got back up to fight, that after every failure I have looked for the lesson and day-by-day I am becoming the person I want to be stronger, confident and learning acceptance, compassion and love for the journey ahead.